Bring It

 That's it.. I'm depressed.

 Nah, not really. But I think everyone feels similar post Christmas blues. For some reason, t.v. land doesn't realize that Christmas is over, so the commercials are still about Christmas and holidays. I don't know what it is, but the moment the calendar flips to the 25th, those commercials and songs are instantly annoying or hold no real excitement. That's why I always say that Christmas Eve is still my favourite day during the holidays. Even when I watch Christmas movies, I love the days leading up to the big day but once it's the day, it's less interesting to me.

 Now that Christmas is behind everyone, the New Year is ahead. I often forget that Christmas means that the year is nearly over. I think for fun, I'll steal a picture from each month of 2014 and throw out a one liner or two..

January-- We just got home from our awesome trip to Thunder Bay for Christmas. Then Rob decided one fine January day to chop the Christmas tree up with his new Bear Grylls knife. Yeah, I may have written an entire blog post about it. No biggy.

February-- Not too much to report. Auntie Erin visited. (Although Auntie Erin has made a point to see Alina every month since the day she was born. Thanks Auntie- that's awesome.) We went to Auntie Wendy's (2nd cousin Wendy's) in the city for a dinner and to visit with the rest of our family
there.

  March-- This was a big month for our family. Alina turned 1- I went back to work and Rob's folks were here to celebrate the holiday. My last weeks in March with Alina were very special.. The family was all together for the first time and our girl had a great 1st birthday.

April- Easter time! All of Alina's little friends were already walking, but Alina was not there just yet. Her Easter hunt was cute because she rode her little ride along toy from her b'day to find her treats. We went to church and had a great Easter experience.

 May-- This was the month that changed.. everything. Our hot water tank leaked into our bathroom and kitchen and that was it.. We had to move to a beach resort for a little bit while the restoration crew rebuilt our floors. Alina even learned how to walk at the resort!

June- The stay at the beach resort extended to June.  Rob helped renovate the rest of our house. In no time, we were move out ready. Little did we know... we would be moving out very, very soon.

July- Even though things were less than ordinary, we made the best of it and still decided to go to the beach, eat lots of ice cream and enjoy the summer time weather.

August-- This was a surprising month. Friends of ours had been mentioning us moving into their house for a few years. It was something that I never really considered. In the spring we decided to take a look at this house and decided that it probably wasn't the best time to be moving. Out of nowhere the renters were moving and before we knew it, we were moving into our new home! August was a very, very fun month. We moved into our dream home and had Rob's folks for a visit.

September-- That was a big month for me, personally. I started my schooling and was completely blown away by the changes that took over. Rob's family that usually lives in other parts of Canada came by at the very beginning of September for a wedding and we were lucky enough to get to visit with everyone. It was a moment in our lives where we really, really took a moment to appreciate those folks.

October-- This was a fun month. Thanksgiving in Canada, Rodney (Alina's Papa) was visiting. We had some good time with family and friends. We had the chance to truly enjoy ourselves.

 November-- The beginning of Christmas is in the air! I volunteered for the first time in my entire life. One of my friends couldn't believe that it was my first time volunteering. I feel embarrassed to admit that it was! Christmas was around the corner and I was getting super excited for the festivities!

December-- The last month of the year is all about family, friends and get togethers! I officially got a break from my schooling, so the stress was completely gone. Rob and I entertained in our new home for the holiday season and that was fun.

 So that's it. 2014 has come and gone and I feel good about it. I have this 5 year journal question book I bought last year. Each year, for five years the same questions are asked and already my answers are so much different than last year. It's amazing how much can change in just one year.

 Let's review;
  I started school in September, which took most, if not all of my time. Rob has been taking officer courses with the fire department. My mom moved away in October. Alina is changing and growing and developing each and every day, it's almost a challenge keeping up with her. If I'm being honest, which I always am here at Truth Be Told- things are going to get challenging as hell. Prepared or not, I'm doing it.

 So-- 2015 I may be a wee bit nervous with what my future holds within this year. But, at the same time- I feel ready to take on this year's challenges.

2015- bring it on bitch.




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The Night Before Christmas

 I always get kind of sappy and sentimental during this time of year. Today, I will be at work until 4 pm which I personally think stinks a little. I think it's nuts that we are expected to work that late on a day that holds such importance to Christmas. Christmas Eve is the day to be excited about. Christmas is still coming and it's literally ONE SLEEP AWAY. All of the anticipation is built up to this day and then boom; it's Christmas. Before you know it; it's over my friends.

 I reminisce of Christmas' past and I remember last year on this day... It was very cold out and Rob's parents house was always really, really warm. So it was tough convincing me to leave the warm and cozy bubble I was in. We packed the little nine month old Alina in her snow suit and we took her 'skating'. She didn't really skate, but we did and it was really fun.

 Even though I'm working until late, I know that Christmas Eve will be happening for my family at the house. Rob's sister and her family are spending Christmas with us this year. So we have a five year old that Alina adores, to watch experience Christmas in her own five year old way. Alina already took well to receiving a present from Santa last weekend. So I think she just about has it all figured out..

Merry Christmas to everyone! Enjoy this special day and night leading up to the big one!


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A True Reward

 What says Christmas more than driving out into the woods to buck some wood for the household?! Nothing, that's what! Well, the weather was the opposite of a typical winter's day. It was sunny and crisp, no snow and no rain! It was seriously perfect.
 
 We had some friends over last night to celebrate Christmas coming and for an excuse to get together. It was fun and we had some drinks. I didn't wake up hung over but I was a bit parched and slow to get out of bed. Alina's Auntie Erin is in town for the holidays and she decided to take her for the day. Rob informed me that this was our last chance before Christmas that we had to get some wood because we were running dangerously low.

 I grudgingly agreed to go with him. I know it's a lot of work, and doing it alone is not an option. He lured me into it with the promise of Tim Horton's for breakfast. (You can pretty much convince me to do anything with the treat of Timmy's.) I wasn't so sure that things would go well. Rob and I are great friends, we've built this life together and we for the most part, get along great. However, when we are doing actual physical activities such as gathering and chopping wood, we tend to butt heads a little bit. We ended up getting along great this time around. Either I got nicer or we've both just grown into this couple that can contently spend the entire day together searching for, bucking, loading, chopping and piling wood.

 One thing I noticed was how different men and women are. The entire time I was full of questions..

"Where are we going?"

"How much further?"

"Do you want me to stand over there or help you?"

 Rob was obviously his very focused self. He would patiently answer my questions and never once did he get annoyed. I love him for that. 

 Weeks ago, he went with a friend to do exactly what we did. There was a way better selection there when they went and it was a pretty quick process. The logs of wood are so heavy and at one point, Rob picked one up and threw it closer to the truck. I actually yelled to him, "You're so strong!" Then I burst into giggles. What a girl thing to say. "Good job honey, you're so strong.." I am betting his friend never uttered those words when they went together. Girls are so encouraging. 

 Girls just want to communicate, that's all. I like to know where I'm going, when I'm going to get there and once we're there, what the game plan is. Boys, well they're much simpler. Man chop wood. Man build fire. Man warm, keep woman warm. Basically.

 Overall, it was a very positive experience. The weather has been the total shits lately with crazy winds and downpours of rain all day and all night long. It was so nice to be outside and in the sun at this time of year. While Rob was finishing the last log, he left me a little surprise engraved in the wood. Awww, it's like that one time when he gave me that token for no reason.. I'm a sucker for those little cute affectionate gestures.

  I'm not even done! We got home and we had His and Hers blocks of wood to chop on, so that we could both chop at the same time. Once we were finished we piled it all for the cold days to come. There is nothing more rewarding than providing warmth for your house, with wood that you went out and gathered and chopped yourself!

 Guess what I'm doing right now... 

... just enjoying some of my hard work.

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MHB- Week 37- Focus

 Well, my intentions are good. I want to keep active and run three times a week. However, Wednesday came around and I somehow convinced my half asleep self that I was far too tired and 'sick' to run that morning. I was tired, but sick? My nose gets stuffy in the mornings so I sleep with my mouth opened and then my throat is pretty sore. I think that's what I misinterpreted as 'sick.' What a cop out, half asleep me..

 I do need to focus on the running, not so much the episode of Gilmore Girls that I happen to be watching. I found myself slowing to a speed walk, to stop the treadmill from squeaking, so I could hear the dialogue. Terrible!

 I cheated and forgot to snap a picture Friday morning, so when I got to work I snuck in a quick Hiya- it's Friday picture!

 Not much more to report, other than that I am trying to ignore my desires to sleep in (with Wednesday as an exception) and I'm doing what I do!






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Christmas Magic In The Air

 This is by far my most favourite time of the year. Our house was made for cozy winter nights. It's made for giant Christmas trees and twinkling lights that illuminate the front yard. I love coming home to a crackling fire warming the rooms and a house filled with a mixture of Christmas music and Alina's little voice.

Everything is so magical in the eyes of a child..

This weekend was filled with Christmas related activities. We finally put decorations on the tree and we went to this gorgeous seaside garden that hosts a Christmas light festival. Every year the members and volunteers outdo themselves. We took her last year, but this year she was a bit older and really appreciated the light displays. She also was excited to see Santa, that is until it was her turn to sit on his lap... Although, he did get a high five out of her.

 We also went to pick out a couple of Christmas trees from our friend's tree lot. Rob had an idea to put two trees on each side of the front door and it turned out really nice. Again, another excuse to get together with friends and eat Christmas crap food! (My fav..!)

  I'm so looking forward to the holidays this year! I can't believe we're almost ONE WEEK until the big day. Rob's sister and her family are coming up next week and I'm excited for the company.

What are you doing for the holidays!? 

Do you have any holiday traditions you absolutely MUST do this time of year!?

MHB- Week 36- I'm Back (for now..!)

 Well, I had to quit with my Mission Hot Bod posts because well, life got insane and I just had to stop getting up early to work out. It's crazy how you can go and go and go with doing something for almost ONE YEAR and then all of a sudden, you just stop. Without even realizing it; it's been a few months.
  So here I am.. back at it. It's my first week and I'm just easing into it. I'm not getting into Rush Fit because that seems too huge of a commitment if I'm being honest. I'm running on the treadmill while watching reruns of Gilmore Girls! It's honestly so much easier doing it that way because I hardly think about how tired or out of breath I am feeling.

 Monday- I ran on the treadmill for thirty minutes, watching the pilot for Gilmore Girls. It felt great to get back at it and especially now with the holidays upon us. I'm going to continue to enjoy holiday treats BUT I will still run even if it means nothing to my body. This way, I can feel less guilty about Christmas crab dip and chips... Mmm.

 Wednesday- Same as Monday. I ran and ran.. and took a couple of walking breaks. Feels good to be back at it!

If Alina keeps eating those banana chocolate chip muffins she might have to start running on the treadmill too....

 Friday-  Today I had off because Alina has another cold. It was brought to my attention that she needs to stay home for the early days of her cold. So I had Thursday and Friday off with her. We ended up sleeping in until 8:30. During Alina's nap I decided to run because I didn't get a chance to in the morning when I was sleeping... I watched my Gilmore Girls and ran the full thirty minutes and it was awesome because I was so distracted by my show. I love it. Later on in the day, I chopped a big bin of wood so I could have a cozy fire during the day. I realized after, as I was carrying it up the stairs that that in itself is a workout.




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Holiday Hair

  'Tis The Season for... Christmas parties! My HAIR IDEAS Pinterest board came in handy last weekend. I needed some inspiration and I sure found it. The Freckled Fox posted a pin linking this great hair style to her blog. I followed her easy steps and I ended up really loving my hair!

 I didn't have anyone take my photos while I was creating the hairstyle. (Plus, wouldn't that be so weird? I always feel like a major ass when Rob is taking my picture for my blog...! I am the world's worst model.) The up-do is really, really easy. The best part is that for a moment, it looks really awful and then there's one last step and boom- it's great!

 I look so mad...

  The hair turned out great and I would seriously consider pinning some of the Freckled Fox's pins because she has some great hair tutorials out there.

Via

 As you can see from my picture and the goddess that is the Freckled Fox.. the outcome was much different. However! I still feel like my hair looked fancy enough for my Christmas party.

  I have another Christmas party coming up and I think I'll be doing another hair tutorial. I'll be sure to keep the blog world posted...

 What do you do for your Christmas parties? Do you have that awesome sister or friend that just knows how to do hair? Or do you get brave and attempt it yourself?! 

Christmas Movie Magic

 Christmas isn't Christmas, without the classic movies to accompany the days leading up to it. I don't know about the rest of the world, but I know that in my household, the Christmas movies are taken very, very seriously. For example, if we see a Christmas movie on t.v. that we really love we can't watch it. Oh no, not unless we're both there willing to watch it together. IF the movie is on in the early days of December, like now, then it has to be ignored and saved for a time closer to Christmas. Weird- I know. But that is us.

 Some animated Christmas shows I personally get excited over are Prep & Landing, Shrek The Halls and Arthur Christmas. I'm such a kid. I am absolutely loving that I can share these with Alina now. She's already starting to get into them with me.

 Then, there are the classic cartoons from the past. How The Grinch Stole Christmas, Mickey's Christmas Carol, A Charlie Brown Christmas and my all time favourite; A Garfield Christmas. I'm sure there are more favourites out there, but those ones I seem to watch every year. Those movies are special because they actually take me back to that time when I was just an innocent kid, believing in exactly what my parents told me. A place where time seems to stand still when waiting for Christmas to arrive, a time when magic and the spirit of Christmas lived and thrived inside of me. Christmas movie magic.

   There are the classic films that are a must-see during the holidays like National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation and Home Alone. Both of those absolutely can not be watched without the other and NLCV is saved specifically for Christmas Eve. We watch both of the Home Alone movies, even though the first one is better. We also have to watch A Christmas Story. That one takes me waaay back to being a little one too. I would say that those are the classics.
 Then there are the movies that are secondary to the classics, but still important, like The Santa Clause, Elf and Bad Santa. If I don't see the secondary films I'm okay with it.
 The movies that are set during the Christmas holiday, but aren't completely centered around Christmas are also fun to watch during this time of year. (Or in my case, all year round.)  The Holiday, The Family Stone; which I adore and Love Actually; a true classic.

 So during the holiday season, I am very busy watching my favourite Christmas specials because they bring me back and completely get me into the holiday spirit.  What are some of your family's must-sees during the holidays?!

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OMG OMG OMG -- I'm Back!

 It feels so great to be back! I'm finished my two modules now and I just can't believe how amazing it feels! I love it.

 On Wednesday I had my final for Management and Drug Distribution Systems. It was harder than I anticipated or at least studied for. I was a wee bit nervous about my lack of studying. However... it was okay because I passed! Hurray! I couldn't be more exhilarated with this news!

 There were a lot of things that I really wanted to blog about over the last few months. I have been neglecting my Crazy Shit Rob Does posts and believe me-- he's still doing crazy shit! I've been meaning to THANK ever so sincerely Sarah from Venus Trapped In Mars for designing my blog. She always does a great job with her blog designs and I can't thank her enough for making my blog look more professional. Sadly the change came when I was the busiest and had zero time to acknowledge her and appreciate her for her efforst! I want to also ask her how to add my Post Series to my sidebar since I never had the time to ask.. So they're there but empty and they still have the title.. Post Series. So embarrassing.....

 I want to throw in a couple of more Wanna Read My Journal?! volumes as well as catching up with those seasonal posts that get us all excited for that upcoming holiday!! I miss my blog peeps.. Amanda at Rhyme and Ribbons, Noor and Areeba- my twin overseas sistahs, Miss Jade and her wild adventures in South Africa, hilarious and wonderful Sarah from Baloney Bin.. my Baltimore loving Soup.
 Those are just a few of my favourites. I seriously have missed these girls and keeping up with their lives and their stories. Thanks for keeping up with mine and I look forward to catching up with all of you. 

 Christmas is upon us and I feel so excited for our first Christmas in our new home! The tree is up but not fully decorated.. just lights. It looks amazing. Rob even put it up on a pedestal AND he used our hedge trimmer to make it 'perfect'... Alina's words when she saw it in a whispering voice, "Woooooow."

The house- so far.....!

  

I Got A P!

 Well.. back in September I started two courses to get me started on my journey of becoming a registered/certified pharmacy technician. I had my Pharmacology final a couple of weeks ago and I felt completely freaked out that I was going to bomb it. I mentioned in my last post what the final included. If you didn't read that post, then I'll just tell you... a lot. I was pretty nervous and hoping that I had studied enough.

 The day of the exam, I felt okay. I drove myself into the city and as I got closer and closer to the university I got more unsure of myself. I found parking easier than I expected and ended up being parked directly beside the building that I needed to find. I stood at the elevator with a girl on a mission, trying to act all casual like I always went to university on a Thursday morning. No big deal. A girl walked up beside me and pushed the elevator button. I looked at her and said, "Hey.. thanks. These elevators work better when you push the button, huh..." She was very nice and said that people forgot to push it all of the time. Amateur!

 My good co-worker and friend Jody is also taking the course and she was there waiting for me, trembling in her seat with nerves. We were both utter messes but we gathered ourselves together to get this final completed. It was go time and we both put our heads down and worked our little minds to the max! I found the exam much easier than I anticipated. I think it felt easy because I studied my ass off and we were allotted three hours to complete it. 

 Once I finished the exam, I headed straight to the college pub. Rob went to this university last year and told me about the campus pub. So as soon as I was finished, I followed Rob's directions and found myself waiting outside the door for the pub to open. I had myself a celebratory drink and I felt great!

  It was my first taste at secondary school and if I could relive my early twenties I'm sure I would push myself to physically attend college or university. I liked the vibe I was getting and it felt like something I would be really into. Learning and having fun. I'm a geek but that sounds like a pretty great package to me.

 I managed to snap a selfie in the one area that wasn't swarming with students. As you can see from my selfie- I was soooo happy to be done that final! It took a week to get the results back. Unfortunately I didn't get my mark for the final, so I'll never know. All I was waiting for was either a P or an F on my transcript. Pass or Fail. I find that to be so utterly underwhelming. After all of that hard work I was hoping for at least a percentage in the course or from the final. Music and streamers would also be nice. But, I did get what I was looking for; a P. I passed! This coming Wednesday is my final in Management and Drug Distribution Systems. I'm still nervous about this one because it is difficult to study for. However, I'm going over my notes that I do have and I am really hoping that it will be enough!

 Wish me luck and soon, oh so soon, I will be off for the month of December celebrating Christmas and being a normal person for a bit. I'm very much looking forward to it....!

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Anybody there?

 Knock knock- anybody there?

Yeah, that's how it's been around these parts. I have totally been missing in action from all things not school related. I have taken an absence from cleaning and even making suppers in the last week and for all of next week. Rob is going coo coo picking up my slack. Is it wrong that I am seriously enjoying seeing him struggle? Not because I'm a nasty person but because I do the cooking all of the time and YES he now sees that it is a lot of work.

 I have a final on Thursday and it's not any of the BIG provincial finals that I have to take. GULP. But, it's the beginning and I'm nervous as hell. It's 100 multiple choice questions and I have to get 70% to pass the course. I am beyond exhilarated that the final is only on half of the course and not the entire course. THAT would be insanely intense.

 I'll just give an overview of what is expected of us to know and yes I realize that this will probably cause my 38 followers' eyes to glaze over in boredom BUT, I have just can't stop myself..

Treatment of -

Gastrointestinal Tract Infections

Fungal Infections

Pain (there are about oh... twenty opiods to remember.. no big deal.)

Women's Health (Hormone Replacement Therapy and Reproductive System and Contraceptives)

Men's Health (Erectile Dysfunction and Prostate)

Viral Infections (Treatment of Herpes, Hep and HIV and Cancer) This one makes my butt pucker up in anticipation.

Bacterial Infections

Those are the subjects that are being covered but then we have to know- pharmacological therapy, all of their drug classes, generic and brand name, doses and strengths, auxillary labels (Take on Empty Stomach, etc.) and adverse effects or reactions. All terms and definitions that are associated with each subject example; trigeminal, nociceptive pain, dermatophytes, etc.)

 So there it is. I'm going crazy but at the same time, I feel like I serve some kind of purpose studying this stuff. It's the first time in my life, that I've actually TRIED at anything school related, outside of high school. It's not easy, but if it was, then everyone would be certified pharmacy technicians.

 So, while I've had my nose in my books Rob and Alina have been really building on their cute, little daddy-daughter relationship.

Rob thought it was time to let Alina drive one of the fire trucks.

 Rob had to work last Saturday and I needed some time to study, so I pawned Alina off with our friends Kim and Cam and Alina's best little buddy Abigail. Alina was not super pleased that I was ditching her on one of 'our' days together. (Nothing a Tim Horton's muffin can't fix!)

 But, even though I'm busy, I will always make some time for my little monkey butt.. I don't know why I call her that.. but I just do. You're welcome Teenage Alina...

  I'm behind on replying to my emails and comments but I really appreciate the comments and love from my blogging peeps. I am also sorry that I haven't been able to read my favourite blogs. But I will try to catch up soon enough! Be patient with me, like the rest of my world has been and I promise that I'll be back sometime very soon! Until then.. Wish me luck!!!

Ohhh Sick Days

 I think I've commented on 'Sick Days' before.. But this Thursday I was the selected parent to hang out with Alina on her 'sick day'. Our daycare provider is very nice but I find that she.. well she gives us a bit of 'tude' when we bring Alina in with a runny nose. I work in pharmacy and the pharmacist assured me that children, depending on the viral infection are mostly contagious 1-4 weeks BEFORE they show signs of sickness. So if Alina showed up with a runny nose, the rest of the kids are hooped because they were all swapping spit 1-4 weeks before that. She's still just a tad contagious when she first starts her cold, but she was mostly contagious weeks before. AKA- she can go to daycare and I don't have to feel so damn guilty about sending her kind of mucous-y. I get it. Sick kids need more tlc. But our Alina is by far, the happiest sick kid that ever lived. She was in great spirits, but  I decided as a courtesy to our daycare provider, to keep her home.
 I can't lie. It's awesome spending extra time with Alina. She is a wonderful kid, full of personality and spunk.

First thing in the morning, in our oneisies during 'sick day'!

 It was also my very first day of building a fire for our house all day long. Our new house is big, with vaulted ceilings and our heating situation isn't like it was. So we have gotten used to heating our home with the fireplace. Sooooo.. it was officially my first day of keeping the house warm with fire. Of course I have pictures to prove it...

This is a picture I took to text Rob to show him how well I was doing, keeping a fire going ALL day long!

 Today really gave me a taste of what it would be like to be a stay at home mom. I love Alina so much. But I will admit, that I don't mind having somewhere to go, somewhere to be needed.. Although, I will admit- that my girl needs me every day too. It was really great to spend some extra time with Alina, but I'm glad she goes to daycare everyday. It gives her variety, it socializes her with kids her own age and it's different from her surroundings.

All in all, we had a good day together. After nine, she was all excited and happy that we weren't leaving the house. We weren't following our usual routine.. It was a mom and Alina day. I will always appreciate those days, even when they don't happen too often. Cherish each one- was my sister's advice that day!

My kid- the genius!

Excuse me.. are these your underwear?

 Funny story! Got to love a random story in blogland... that is for sure.

 So Rob, Alina and I were enjoying some cranked tunes in the living room. Which is something that we never do. Rob started out by putting one song on and then Alina reacted by jumping up and 'dancing'. (Whiiiiiich consists of her putting her head down, hands on her belly and walking around and around in a circle. It's a bit strange, but we all have our quirks.) For a minute, I almost thought that I heard some kind of a ping pong noise through all of the music. Then it hit me; the doorbell! It was our old neighbour, the very neighbour that ended up buying our little house. He bought it to rent out. Side note: the young couple that moved in are having their first child in four weeks. So we couldn't be happier with who is now living in our old house.
 Our neighbour said that he didn't want to interrupt us because it looked/sounded like we were having a lot of fun. (Blush...) But he wanted to stop by because his tenants discovered that we left an entire load of laundry in our dryer. !!!! (...an old load of laundry from the end of July.)
 That would be an entire load of laundry equipped with;
2 pairs of Rob's underwear
2 pairs of MY underwear (GAAAASP!!! Come on girls, we all know what our underwear looks like.. it's not that it's all that bad, it's just.. well, not what you want total strangers to be seeing!)
2 GOOD towels. You know, the ones that are big and actually dry you off!
And finally... MY WORKOUT CLOTHES!
 Rob and I both could have sworn that I brought my workout clothes to this house. We both remember seeing me with them in our bedroom. Turns out, we're both nuts. I am so excited to have left those behind, because I was going nuts trying to figure out where they were in this damn house!

THE pile of missing laundry...!

 Now for a little snippet of our evening, I present to you... dancing Alina.

 

( Cute to see what she likes to 'rock out to'....)

Have you ever left an entire load of your laundry somewhere !?!?!!? 

App-arently... I have!

 

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Fears & Nightmares

 In the true spirit of Halloween, I figured I should write something related to fears and nightmares. I always enjoy thinking back to when I was younger and what I found terrifying opposed to what I am afraid of today.

 Reoccurring nightmares of the past-
I was always afraid of being abandoned. I constantly had nightmares where I was with my parents and siblings one minute and the next I'm looking from far away at them leaving without me. Gasp.

Reoccurring nightmare of the present-
To be honest, I haven't had a lot of reoccurring nightmares. But the ones I have had on numerous occasions but not lately are my catmares. That's right, my totally irrational 'fear' of cats.
I can be around cats but I would just prefer not to be. I don't trust them... My catmares start out with things being normal and then I see a cat. Out of nowhere my dream goes from being totally fine to me being attacked by one and  no matter what I do, I can't escape it.

Quick review; my dreams from the past are more adult than my irrational fear of cat dreams... Interesting.

True fear of the past-
 Besides being left behind, I had fears of the dark like most kids. I was afraid of our basement in our house because it gave me the creeps. One fear I had when I was much younger was getting into trouble. When I was probably six I had this puppet I made and I threw it onto the bird cage with our budgie bird Buddy inside. Well Buddy lost his nut and freaked out. It scared me and I thought if my parents found out, I would get into so much trouble!!! Of course my older sister totally capitalized on this and used it against me for years! I still remember her empty threat; "If you keep doing that Haley I'll tell mom and Rudi that you threw your puppet on Buddy's cage!" It worked like a  hot damn until I finally got wise and told her to do it...

True fears of the present-
Not passing my courses and exams. I am so afraid of failure. I just, don't think I would take it very well. I would feel like I wasted our money, my time and I would feel like a big, old, dumb loser. So yes, that's a big current fear. As for general fears- I don't like spiders or any bugs. I will avoid going through a box left in storage if I have any indication that there might be a spider or two inside. I am also totally afraid of REAL ghosts. Yeah, I know... some people would argue that they aren't real. But, I have had some experiences, pretty small but still... I am totally fascinated with true stories of real paranormal activity but if there was a ghost hiding in this new house, I don't think I would handle it so well.

 I am super sad to report, that I have no plans to dress up for Halloween today. I.. can't believe it. I have always done something but now that we have a little one, she takes precedent over me finding a fun and witty costume for work. But, we did find a moment last weekend to carve pumpkins.

Susannah from Simple Moments Stick featured a bunch of bloggers for her Halloween inspired blog post a couple of weeks ago. I was featured, can you find me!?

Happy Halloween everybody!!

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An Interview- With A Toddler

 Sooo.. it may have been noticed that I haven't been posting on Fridays for my MHB updates. That is because...
 I haven't been working out. Gasp! I know... However, I have been having a very hard time waking up in the mornings to study because I've been so tired. I've decided until November, I will stop with the working out. Once I take my final exam for pharmacology, I will start up with working out again. This school thing is pretty serious stuff and I have to make sure that I'm all there in order to do it. Working out has to take the back seat for a bit. Although, it is sad because my one year anniversary is coming up in November. I didn't quite make it, which kills me. I would have been consistently working out for one full year. I was so damn close!!

 On to more important things like.. my ever changing baby girl! Alina is growing like crazy. She now counts, with prompting and repeats just about any word you ask her to. (IF she's in the mood.) She gets into everything, but not in a bad way. We can usually tell her to put something back and she will OR she'll run away and make you chase her. I think that's more of a game rather than just being a little shit. She has laid off on the whole, "noooooooo" thing which I'm relieved about. I was really getting sick and tired of hearing her answer "noooo" to everything.

 Alina has really stepped up her dancing game. We will have little dance parties in the living room from time to time. It's funny to see what music gets her head bobbing. She'll always get into the techno beats or some rave music. But then she'll surprise me and really groove to some old country. The kid likes her some beats and it doesn't matter which genre. (Which I really like about her.) She's a blast in the bath tub. She sings and counts and tries to recite the alphabet into her sand bucket. (A real genius in the making... I know!)

  If Alina could write.. she would make a list of her favourites and it would go a little something like this:

 Her favourite food:  Everything. Unless my mom is trying to get me to try something at dinner and then I will usually refuse. Take me out of my high chair and put me on the floor and suddenly all I want in the entire world is that food my mom wanted me to try because it's on her dinner plate. Muffins, CANDY from dad, raspberries, crackers and Oreo cookies (thanks to my Papa.) I'm also obsessed with juice. It's basically magic. I had my 18 month old needles last week and it hurt until mom and dad gave me some apple juice and miraculously I forgot aaaall about it.

 Her favourite t.v. show:  Obviously Sesame Street. It's the one show that mom lets me watch consistently since I was a baby. Although on Saturdays we've been watching some really interesting animation movies like "Monsters Vs. Aliens" and "Frozen".. I think my mom enjoys them more than I do...

 Her favourite activities:  I have a crazy shoe fetish as well as this new strange thing about clothes in hampers. It doesn't matter if they're clean or dirty, I just like to get in there and wrap the garments around my neck and walk around like I look pretty amazing. Sometimes I'll just drape something right over my head and walk around, bumping into walls. I don't care, it's fun.

Okay, well this is a basket.. but you get the idea...

  What's been getting her into trouble:  Listening. I grab whatever I want and then I either run away so that my parents chase me or I give it to them right away. It depends on my mood. They're starting to get mad at me when I grab certain things like, beer bottles with beer in it, or the other day Papa was eating pizza and I grabbed his sharp knife. He really yelled out and I don't get why, but apparently I shouldn't touch those things..... in front of them. Oh and the fire place- they are super uptight about me going near it, and they really lose it when I try to sit on the edge. I love sitting on ledges, don't they know that!?

This is Alina's sad face when she gets into trouble..

 We've been having a really great time with our little person these days. She keeps us very, very, very busy and extremely happy.